With my laptop on the rustic wooden table, I am waiting for my orange, carrot, and ginger juice as I am overlooking the impressive ocean. Feeling the force of the waves as they firmly crash into the shore. One after the other, I observe as they steadily continue their pattern, which, I currently realise, will never cease as long as the ocean breathes.
The intensity will change along with the ebb and flow of the tides, but life doesn’t take breaks — the waves will keep on coming.
Raised above the blowing sand and sheltered from the burning sun, I have found myself in this gem of a restaurant on the beach of Mazunte, Oaxaca, Mexico.
It is in the middle of May 2025, and I have just turned 40 years of age in this lifetime. With that in heart, I gave myself this gift of vacation, a honeymoon with myself, and I do my best to receive it as well.
Between Acceptance and Becoming
I am allowing myself to take things slow, aligning with what I currently feel, without the need to advance and perform.
With that said, there is an energy in me that wants to learn, create, share and grow, and within this, there is an impulse to feel that it is moving towards something of value — advancing not only internally but externally as well.
This is a natural tendency in our humanity to evolve and experience meaning — to feel that our lives matter.
And currently, I find myself in this divine intermediary space of accepting where I am while remaining conscious of where I want to be.
And this is one of life’s spectacular paradoxes, that the only way to get to where I want to be is to simply and completely be where I am.
I cannot reach the future by grasping for it, just as the butterfly won’t land on the child that chases it — but by being fully present, the future arrives on its own, becoming the present moment just as I am.
It might be easier said than done. But this is the way. Not escaping my current experience or trying to reach something from the empty space of lack, but by simply being here. And slowly yet surely, “I am getting there” ;)
This tension between where we are and where we want to be is universal yet personal for each individual.
Some of us are satisfied where we are — perhaps too satisfied?
While others never seem to be content and are always looking ahead — could this be me?
Both are traps, and yet both are part of the process of learning to encounter ourselves in the divine equilibrium of who we are.
It is a dance between unconsciously repeating the familiar past and rushing towards an imagined future.
The balance is found in the sacred middle. Consciously living life to its fullest by appreciating what we have and being present with what surrounds us while remaining inspired to create, explore, and become more.
Release Pressure — The Call to Share
Somewhere between the soothing sound of the waves and the spaciousness of the moment, a Message of the Moment arrives.
My lists are growing. There is much I want to learn. Much I want to experience. Much I want to see. So very much I want to share.
Yet somehow things are stuck — and have been for quite some time. And as I keep things trapped inside, they block the natural energetic flow of life, which in turn creates tension, pain and imbalance.
With this, a message that keeps on appearing is to SHARE. Share. Share. Share. Allow yourself to express freely so that the energies are enabled to move through in an effortless flow. As you release what is present, the current flows, and the new may arrive.
This is a period of rejuvenation and growth, of allowing energies to move through my system without being blocked by unconscious tension and unnecessary pressure.
Connecting to the natural rhythm of life, I enter into a dynamic movement of release and renewal. In continuous motion, the divine dance of receiving, giving, embodying, and expressing unfolds.
RELEASE PRESSURE.
REMOVE EXPECTATIONS.
ALLOW EXPRESSION TO EFFORTLESSLY UNFOLD.
The Divine Equilibrium of Quality and Flow
Yes, I want to bring a high level of quality to the work I present — to the way I express myself and interact with the world.
I do my best to integrate my experiences and share the wisdom I am learning from life — materialising into form through living, trying, failing, and rising.
I care what I share and desire to have a positive impact on the world — moving towards more beauty, love, justice, and balance, and away from suffering, injustice, and despair.
I want to add genuine, real value and feel that my life matters — that there is a reason for me being here.
If not, what is the point?
Contributing and feeling that we have a function — our specific place and purpose — that we belong and are part of something larger are intrinsic to the human design. For me, this runs deep.
It is a beautiful quality that inspires us to go deep within ourselves and is a catalyst for growth. However, when not balanced, as with all qualities, it can work against us as well.
Not feeling satisfied with what I share with the world would go against my nature as I know it. I have a personal eye for details, and I consider this a great gift — and it is, when I use it consciously.
When we are in balance, we amplify our gifts without overdoing. Placing too much pressure and demand on ourselves is not sustainable, and we might end up doing nothing instead.
The desire for quality can quickly become an elegant form of procrastination.
Because what is the point of being so particular about an idea of perfection, so that in the end, nothing gets out? It is like the obsession with perfection contradicts the very essence of perfection — to flow, be, and create in union with our nature and unique design.
My eye for detail may lead to procrastination. My stubbornness may lead me too far in the wrong direction or keep me from beginning in the first place. Even enjoying life can become too much and distract us from our task.
All our qualities can work against us, yet when we are in balance, they are superpowers — reminding us that nothing is truly good or bad, but it is in the divine equilibrium where all things are made to shine.
On the other hand, tipping too far the other way — presenting work that is rushed and half-assed simply to get ahead — is equally out of alignment. The art is found in the balance: creating with care while still allowing the work to be released.
Thus, by placing light on my patterns, I increase my self-awareness and move towards equilibrium.
As I acknowledge my natural tendency toward quality, I align with my personal standards — and in the divine intersection where quality and quantity meet, true perfection breathes.
This is the equilibrium between yin and yang. The masculine energy of execution, direction, and action — aligned with the divine feminine eye for detail, depth, and quality. Without rushing, yet acknowledging that the time is now.
And from this equilibrium, a space opens to share — not as an authority, but as someone who is learning by walking the path of life.
I Affirm:
“I create from the divine equilibrium of quality and quantity. My body, heart, and mind are aligned. I live in harmony with my qualities, mission, and desires — the fine line where authentic self-expression is practised, honed, and released.”
Thank you for reading and for being here.
What does authentic expression look like for you — and what gets in the way?
