Personal Journal Post: Lessons & Insights from “FLOW60” – 02.04.2025
“Being Triggered – Expressing Feelings – Speak My Truth”
Yesterday a situation arose which triggered something in me and created a charge of irritation which I felt throughout my body. My focus was brought away from where I had been, present in harmony and peace, into sensations and thoughts of irritation and charge. And instead of respectfully sharing what I experienced and felt, I allowed the charge to build up until I snapped and expressed myself in a reactive way.
It’s interesting, the resistance of expressing my feelings in the moment when I feel, in a mature, honest, and loving way. And instead holding onto and keeping inside emotions until the container becomes full and overflows. By default then, as the pressure continues to build, the bubble bursts and releases a negative charge, which may create a ripple effect of toxic energy waves.
It seems to be a level of vulnerability and fear connected to this “sharing what I feel”. And I see now, here and today, more clearly the importance of “daring to express my truth” –> before it is too late. And I am becoming more aware from my daily practice of feeling, how the energetic charge systematically builds up in me when I do not.
As I recognize the charge building up in my body and the triggered thoughts that accompanies, I find myself with two alternative routes that serves my personal peace and wellbeing and helps me to maintain a stable energy within myself.
Primarily I connect with breath and the sensations in my body. I breathe consciously and peacefully and calm my nervous system.
From here I can either feel the sensations and accept the situation and circumstances as they are. Not believing thoughts and allow the energy and emotions to run through me. Relax and release. Accept and feel unconditionally without judgement, comparison, blame, or charge.
However, if the charge keeps on returning as triggered thoughts and emotions, there may be a need to release and allow the energy to flow. This can be done in various ways depending on the source and situation, for example, through movement, breath, exercise, or voice. In regards to my current situation it is in relation to sharing what I feel in the moment and expressing my truth. From peace and calm, with loving words.
Since yesterday and continuing today I have some things on my mind which I feel to share. I can sense the freedom and peace of acknowledging what I want by expressing what I feel. And I can also sense the slight uncomfortability and hesitation of “having the talk” in regards to how it will be received and how the other person will feel. And in the end how that will echo back and make me feel.
With that said, I decide to share today in order to release the tension that is related and tied to that. Honouring my energetic body and mental clarity and capacity, i.e. the quality of my experience, health, and wealth.
This seems to be an ingrained part in the human consciousness, which most of us share and live to some degree or another; The resistance of sharing our personal truth and what we want – in respect to what we feel is best for our person and life quality – to others, because of the fear of how THEY will react. And thus allowing that to be higher in value than honouring our own personal truth and wellbeing.
Also acknowledging that there might be a deeper fear that, if we actually share our truth, we have to stand by it, honour and live up to it. It releases us from old restraints while opening up to new responsibilities and challenges.
In the end it seems to be a fear of the outcome that comes from expressing. What will happen after I share with the other or the world? Because things will open up and change, somehow in some way.
Expressing our truth then is magic in a sense, as it creates and transforms beyond our control. This in regards to different dimensions and ways. In sharing my art, feelings, ideas or whatever it may be. There is a fear of how I will be received by the external and what may be created by it being released.
And so I have had a tendency of holding on, from unconscious fears of the outcome. As opposed to simply breathe, connect, feel, trust, and share from my heart what is. 🥰🙏
I write and share this in order to place light on the hidden unconscious fears and limitations and become more aware. And with that being able to live in harmony, lighter and freer.
And as such, by sharing I learn, to both release and receive, to express, share and to feel. I expand and evolve and unconscious fears and hidden limitations which holds me trapped gently dissolves.
Thank you for listening.
