“ENTERING into MASTERY” – Introduction & Foreword

As I will begin to share “the project itself” as it began and my personal process throughout, I want to here make a small introduction “to set the stage” and “clear the way”.        

My intention for this writing project was to affirm and solidify my path of evolution and growth. Of personal and inner mastery. Of beginning to materialize more solidly the lessons I receive through life as I experienced how I kept on returning to the same things and places.

With daily journaling throughout a 30 day period I gave myself the opportunity communicate with myself.

Writing out and seeing my thoughts on paper allows me to see more clearly the inner dialogue and how it goes.

And more so it gives me the opportunity to ask and question the stories and assumptions that otherwise may play by default, creating my reality as they explain, affirm, and define what things, life, and situations are and what they mean. It brings opportunity to see this, in a way, automatic and dominant process, which continuously unfolds and creates.

And as I do place this attention and allow myself to ask, wonder, and question. The narrative itself may be understood and even changed. And throughout this process I began to see – and see each day more – the power of thoughts and words and how they create.

The day is September 20^th, 2022. I have settled into my new home on the other side of earth with my now other and additional family here in Comitan, Chiapas, Mexico.

More than a year has passed since I came for a few days to see what this encounter and place might bring. I called, it welcomed me, I came. And still here I am.

Throughout these writings as I share my thoughts and thought processes I am re-entering the same and similar concepts and returning to what I supposedly already know and has apparently already been said.

But in a slightly different and altered way. This is by intent and by order of integrating more completely. Covering a larger totality from different angles and directions.

In other blogposts (link) I share more profoundly around the concept of repetition but here I am simply making the point that it is not enough – I have learnt – to simply see a thing once and register it intellectually to then continue onwards to the next and the next and so on. As was my preferred way for many years.

Because it may be the easiest in the moment. And it might give me the perception of advancing, but in reality I am not integrating in this way. I am rushing ahead and choosing the “way of least resistance” at the cost of embodying the actual messages and lessons that the experience of life brings.

Instead it gives me a false sense of learning and advancing. In fact, in this sense I am standing still. Treading in quicksand while my mind thinks ahead, as opposed to “being aligned” and calmly and actually move in order to arise on the shore.

“I am setting sail towards a location I do not yet know. I cannot yet see it from where I am but I feel it from within. Where I will land I do not know but the direction is set, to master my will and my inner world. To align with intention and to live my life well.

And as I move towards the thing, a resonance begins. With intention and listening, practice and repetition. Continuously learning and consistently adapting.

And as I move from where I am, the journey solidifies, and the way emerges.“

And then beyond this first stage I am here continuing the Second Phase.

In honouring what I share here above, I return to my writings. Re-entering and continuing the integration. The solidification of phase one by returning once more. This time with more experience and another light.

And more so, also what I am sharing in another blogpost (link), that it is my will and intention to share with the world and for those who it might want to take part, which in one way or another it may serve or benefit.

The work begins with and within me and from here as I learn I may share with the world.

And so for this Phase 2 I am revisiting these 30 days of initial journaling. Returning to my thoughts and the lessons I then connected to. Giving myself the gift of remembering and reintegrating, and with that adding to and adapting with the experience and wisdom I have gained since then.

I am continuously learning that what once was (or seemed) so true, suddenly is not more, or has yet another layer and part.

And so for whoever chose to share my journey I welcome any comments or thoughts to clarify this work. Both for me and for you. I hope this gives you something and I thank you for accompanying me.

Now and from here entering “Day 1”, which from its original phase has turned into many pages more. Thus will come out in different passages with different messages, stories, and lessons throughout.

Partly I share “my life” and what happens but mostly and most is the process within and what I connect to from this experience of life. Which comes from the dynamic of writing in synchronicity with the “actual living”. The experience of life. The work in the earth, my encounter with beings and interactions with life in its different glorious and beautiful forms.

Lastly, someone has a beautiful quote that might add some meaning and suitable closing here;

“Life can only be live forwards but can only be understood looking backwards”.